Wednesday, December 05, 2007
nothing ever ends sweetly, more often than not carrying a bittersweet taste.
so yeah training was fun, prom was great and everything seems to go well for the closing day of jc life. that is until the damn phone starts ringing and some voice ORDERING you to return home asap. damn man doesn't that just spoil the mood? prom night and cannot even fucking stay out? even though it was told to them that i was going home late to the extent of staying out, those words seem to have got eaten up. arguments for me not able to stay out are bullshit.
the most famous one goes something like 'you don't come home we cannot sleep', the 'we' of course refering to parents. ok fair enough you worry cos we don't come home. but is it affecting you to that extent? so now the worry of not coming home and doing something stupid outside keeps you awake isit? i mean, what has me not coming home got to do with your sleep. JUST SLEEP LA. for goodness sake, this is singapore dammit. people get fined even for littering and arrested if going around in groups in the middle of the night. you think so suay say kena robbed or what meh? given that these things do happen, but what is the probability of it? even kena jiao sai oso got higher chance than something untowards happening. and please. 18 yrs old. EIGHTEEN. in case one is not familiar, that's the legal age to drink, smoke and BET AT SG POOLS ARH. wtf even government is allowing us to kill ourselves but yet the freedom to stay out late is so hard so come by.
next, you feel bad and tell us that morning and afternoon and evening and later into the night are available for us to go out and do nonsense. but there is are different times for different things. farmers don't water their plants at night, nor do pubs go full force during the day. some things are meant to be experienced when they should be experienced. how to experience life full when part of the 24hrs in a day is permanently shut out and out of reach?
is letting a child out such a difficult thing to do? sometimes i admit the decision may be a tough one, but there must always be a first time. no point dragging the occurance of the first time when he feels he's ready for it. he deserves it if he falls. as the saying goes 'no pain, no gain'. falling and learning is better than overprotecting. as to the worry that the fall may be a huge one, advice, and not completely prevent the flight.
i thought being ordered back right after sec sch prom was bad enough, and the situation could improve after that. sadly, i was wrong. well, it did improve, but not to the extent that i wanted it. come on..is asking for ONE night out with friends a little too much to ask? moreover, i believe those friends are rational ones, people who are able to make decisions considering all possible factors and outcomes. oh well, i guess the image of friends go together with the image of myself in their mind. and since i'm someone thought by them to be immature and naive, so are my friends.
many a time i tried to resolve the matter. having heart to heart talks..but they all seem to fall on deaf ears. interested to listen at first, but as my arguments got stronger and theirs seem to get weaker, it always ends with 'what if something happen? we will feel guilty all our lives you know?'. yes i know, but if the stifling continues, it will be me who is going to regret not being able to enjoy life to the fullest when i could have.
i am so damn tired after ranting those nonsense out. help?
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